Early Life Struggles and Indifference

senior high school i didn't really have that much young for me my grades were terrible i got pulled over frequently because my car was loud i kind of feel like my parents thought i was like a loser all my friends are getting accepted to college oh here's my acceptance letter from penn state ohio state whatever were you going to college me i don't know did you take the s.a.t yet no when are you going to do that i don't know i don't care i didn't care i didn't think that was like i just didn't care i was just indifferent because it didn't none of that appealed to me i just nothing lit me up nothing like cars that was just like what i wanted to do that's the only thing i paid attention to and if i'm being completely honest i was not in a great head state back then i wasn't like suicidal or anything by that means but when i would drive i didn't care if something happened to me and i don't mean that like i wouldn't drive out like maliciously i mean i'd go make polls on the highway because i liked it and i thought well if a deer runs out in front of me then whatever that's supposed to happen i accept that so i just went out and just did whatever i wanted to do