College and Seeking More Time for Passion

so back to the process of how i went from bowling my audi around not caring if i got t-boned or something to now i never took college that seriously because i could afford to not to i wasn't paying for it i didn't have to i was just like forced to go to college that's just it was the standard i had no other option it was just pushed upon me like i was gonna go to freaking bc3 and i didn't care my dad like made me apply to penn state and i happened to get in somehow i don't know how my gpa was like a 2.0 or something i think they like my recommend my um application letter i don't know i have no idea but anyway i got in and i was like okay now i have it wasn't every day i scheduled my classes so it was like every other day so like monday wednesday friday so i'm thinking great i have more time to do what i want to do now and i have more time to stave off that responsibility of some [ __ ] life i don't want which i didn't care about i was not doing what was needed of me to do that and if i was doing bad in a class and it sucked i'd just drop it and i'm like well you can't drop that you could oh you need to make that blade i'm like i don't care like it just didn't i just pushed push push pushed it off so i could just do do car stuff and i had no intent of doing the things that i'm doing right now back then i just did it because i liked it and that was my sole focus all day every day i'd be sitting in class just thinking about what i was gonna do when i got back in the garage or you know what my friends were doing that was just it i blindly followed what i was interested in it blows my mind to think about what what could have been right now if for the last four years i had had not taken the trajectory that i did this didn't just happen some so-and-so wasn't my next-door neighbor nobody just did this like i was not i don't come from racing family my dad doesn't know how to work on cars i was just you know i like cars i mean he liked cars too but he didn't work on him or do any of that stuff with me like i just learned from hanging out with people because it was generally what i love to do there was a time when i was like a real real low it was my after my first semester of college when i really just like basically blew everything off i thought i could skate through it like i did with high school and that wasn't the case you couldn't see what your grade was online and i had no idea well turns out i failed every single class i had every single class i had…