Prioritize Your Happiness and Observe Reciprocity

for almost a year like a little over a year ago when i was in oklahoma city i lived in the living quarters of my race trailer and it was like my floor was like cardboard because it got wet i had to rip it up that's a story for a different day it was cardboard and plastic the thing was maybe 80 square feet not designed to be lived in at all and it was honestly like pretty embarrassing like i didn't really tell people that but i didn't hold back when i was talking to her i'm like screw it like this is what i do and like here's why like she knew why i was doing it and the fact that she understood that didn't judge me for it was something that stuck to me that fit one more piece of that uh search criteria i guess because you know most females i'll say insert a different word uh would say i'm like oh this guy's a freaking loser no not a loser nope there's a reason for certain sacrifices and if someone doesn't understand that screw them if somebody doesn't want to see the world the way you see it through the lens of your passion and what gets you excited screw up get rid of them doesn't matter i don't care if it is your best friend that you've known since you were a little kid your sibling your uncle your cousin your mom your dad if they pull energy from you when you talk about what you care about one you could just not talk to them about it anymore two if that doesn't work get rid of them completely because this stuff is hard enough and you can't function around people who detract from what gets you excited to get out of bed every morning it's hard to do it feels weird but once you realize that you don't owe anybody anything as far as being obligated to like maintain relationships it is liberating because you don't you're just like you know what i don't care bye as simple as that your own happiness comes first and that should be something that's at the forefront of your thoughts whenever you're in the dating world too because it's super hard for car guys to find people that put up with the stuff they want to do not to mention if she's always wanting you to like pay for everything or buy her things that's no don't do it absolutely do not do it she's using you and you're just the pawn in her chess game that's something i noticed like i think the first time we hung out you paid for my drinks i don't think i spent any money that day yeah so there's that i took note of that too and you drove seven hours to freaking bfe louisiana and i drove three with the trailer to…