Feeling the Impact of Transformation and Progress

and you're just like it's like it's like an actual drug it's like doing drugs you just and you get out of the car and your knees are shaking you're like oh my god i want to do that again like that's how it was for me and ever since then i've been chasing that feeling that's where it all started i look at myself as a person what i was capable of how i viewed the world all of those things before my life with cars compared to now it is i can't even say night and day i am not the same person i am not the person that at that time back then i ever thought i could be if i'm being completely honest i didn't know a life that didn't suck was attainable because you kind of never witnessed that it's just everybody just kind of gets forced into this box they think they're supposed to be in because parents force it on you your teachers at school force it on you and you gotta go to college and have your 401k and get a job and get married and have a mortgage and blah blah blah blah blah blah blah it just sounds like hell is anyone happy i always wonder what is what do people do why how do these people who do cool things how do they get there it just seems like such a disconnect from where i am to where those people are like i thought you know famous people i don't know how that happened