Reflect, Adapt, and Continuously Push Boundaries

beun okay well last night I competed in the um I don't know division area I don't know what it is speech contest evaluation portion of it you saw the footage ended up being about 65 five people there last night um fun exciting event not the point I took second place not the point the point was I pushed myself outside of my comfort zone if you really think I want to get up in front of 65 people I've never met before and evaluate another person that I've never met before and then have all of those people critique my evaluation how well I did judging how another person did little uncomfortable do you get my point do you get my point where you have to continually push yourself outside of your comfort zone that is when you grow that's when you gain the ability to go to a town home meeting and meet with a board of directors and have three four five six seven eyes staring at you and be comfortable and relaxed and be able to present the information in a way that creates the environment that they want to hire you if I didn't keep doing stuff like standing up and trying to win Awards and do contest when it came to the point where the dollar bills were on the line I wouldn't be able to drive those home runs I wouldn't be able to succeed so I practice where it doesn't count now I'm not saying this stuff isn't important please don't get me wrong I think it is important it's huge but my livelihood isn't on the line that's why you need to go outside of your comfort zone you need to step out and find ways to do it now taking second place to me is disappointing not because I am so competitive I just got to winwin win everybody says that oh I was raised competitively it has nothing to do with that what it means to me is I'm now unable to go stand up in front of an even bigger crowd the next stage if I had won would have been standing in front of a couple hundred people and that's where I wanted to be at next I wanted to really get up on a stage and have this feel the sweat coming out of my pores and be totally in a way in a place where I feel like I better put a diaper on cuz I'm about to piss my pants scared because then anything I do from there is that much easier that is how much you have to push yourself that's how much you have to strive to get better to achieve to find wherever it is what whatever you do that makes you feel like you don't want to be there and go there it's as simple as that that's when you grow as a person you know that now I know that I'm just…